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life.an attempt to survive happily.

…at three o’clock in the morning, you might be dreaming;  you  might be already  awake or  not yet asleep. Sometimes you  might think  about yourself, about life or about the others…at  three  o’clock  in the morning you are already  into your next day, you keep your eyes closed and see inside yourself. then, you decide to open them, because it’s too  interesting to  fall asleep. after 5 seconds of self-persuasion, you close your eyes again breathing slowly in and out. images  of  places where you have never been suddenly appear in your mind. images of people and feelings that are somehow real. there is sun, and flowers and happiness all  over this scenery; there are pleasant voices and fragrance which  make you  feel better even though  you  know that  this inside yourself; you  realize it is in fact a different life…>it is not  a dream. you  know that your mind is still awake, striving to resist to the temptation of sleep<. then, something happens. at three o’clock in the morning you  see yourself walking. alone. with your friends. with  your brothers and sisters. then alone again. then, together with your enemies. after that, again with your friends. it appears to  you  that  your stroll is  in vain, and you  decide to open your eyes…it’s three o’clock in the  morning.

…at three o’clock in the  morning you might  have new questions in your mind, you might even have new  answers.there is somehow a sort of introspection that comes up in your mind willingly or not…[you breath in and then out>breath in...breath out<]. then, you close your eyes again. the scenery is completely changed.>there’s no  sun. there are no feelings or  emotions. there are clouds and you feel confused because you cannot see  yourself anymore…no people, no life, no gods.[...] this second part of your internal expedition  becomes a preview of something that might be called future; what concerns you is not how you feel, but how do the others feel…how should they re-create that unity.that hapiness.that life.

…at three o’clock in the morning you decide to dream  about survival. you open your eyes and promise yourself to be happy because you exist. you have a body  and a mind, and a spirit. then, you have brothers and sisters…and friends…[>you breathe in...then breathe out<]…it’s four o’clock in the morning…

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